Still at it

Still working on that book...four chapters completed (first draft, anyway), and I'm on the fifth. It seems to come and go with no predictable pattern. Some days I can't/won't/don't write at all, and others it's all I can seem to accomplish. I know, I know, I've heard that's how it is, but this is how it is for me for the first time, and I'm trying to get used to the idea that I'm even considering getting it published, much less that I'm even able to string a few words together and come up with something decent/interesting. Another retreat this month, and I'm not sure how it's going to look. A number of people have dropped out of the group, and I'm not even sure any more who's going to be there and who's not. No word from Laura in weeks, and I'm beginning to doubt that the other two retreats ever happened at all. Except, of course, I know that they did, and I'm just feeling a little doubtful/confused. I've thought about calling Laura or Susan or one of the other members of the group, but can't really come up with anything to say. Odd. Guess I'll just let it go, and see what happens when I drive out there at the end of the month. Could be I'll be turning around and driving right back, but that's okay, too. More later? I dunno, probably...